Like this:

First, before I get started, I just want to say how absolutely thrilled I am to be home!! Sleeping in my own bed last night was just like Heaven! Now moving on.

Remember that one time when I first started my blog? Yeah, way back when after I wrote a post entitled Cancer does not know deserving? I had told you that while no one listed in that particular post actually deserved to get cancer itself, they most certainly deserved a life altering experience because their past (and current) behaviors at that time were in need of a good shaking up. They were in desperate need of a personality make-over because the people they present themselves as are, well for lack of a better term, they’re assholes.

I will admit however, that as of now one of those people has been showing a lot of behaviors that move towards a more mature, and selfless mind (I can guarantee you though that it isn’t Julie).

Last night on the BlogCatalog.com discussion groups, I had this genius of a guy (note: emphasize the sarcasm on genius) named Drjay1966 insult me in a forum. Now typically, just because you insult me in some online forum, doesn’t mean I’m going to put you on public blast in a blog post. Chances are, if I actually take the time call you out (no matter what the reason), you either said or did something seriously rude to me. I mean really, really rude.

Like Drjay1966 for example! There was a post in one of the discussions regarding suicide (Suicide: Bravery or Cowardly?), and I left my thoughts on there (to sum it up, I wrote that I thought suicide is selfish because the person committing suicide doesn’t realize that there’s always someone out there who has it worse off). After everything I’ve been through, I know this all too well, so that was my heartfelt take on it.

So this genius responds with (and I quote): “Are those the only choices? How about a reaction to unbearable pain?”

My response: “A reaction to unbearable pain? So are you telling me I should’ve considered suicide as an option when I was diagnosed at stage 4 cancer? Wow, that sure is optimistic of you to think that way. Not….”

Then the douchebag has the nerve to say (and I quote, as in I copied and pasted): “No, I’m not saying anybody should do anything. I’m saying people do consider it, and do it, because they feel unbearable pain, which, apparently, you didn’t. We all experience things in different ways. And you might try experiencing a little compassion.”

Holy shit I almost hit the roof! The nerve this sniveling little prick has to 1) assume I have not once been in unbearable emotional and physical pain from my ordeal since May (not to mention having to watch my family and friends’ hearts break over this) and 2) that he assumes I have absolutely no compassion whatsoever.

Needless to say, I said a few choice words to put that asshole in his place! Hopefully the naive little shitbag will now crawl away into some blog hole somewhere and disappear so no other people who have experienced real pain have to worry about his ignorance ever again. This is officially one more person who I think could use a life-altering change, whether it be cancer or whatever else may bring you face to face with your mortality in order to make you a better person.

With all that aside, I fully plan on spending my first full day home from the hospital today relaxing and taking it easy. Maybe I’ll also go for a quick bike ride. Hopefully I’ll get my scan results by tomorrow (I’m starting to worry a little as to why I haven’t been updated on them yet).